Elusive

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One of the main lingering effects from the events of 2006 seems to be my problem sleeping. I can rarely go to sleep without a podcast or a CD playing. It seems that if all is quiet then my mind gets crowded with events and worries, and I just can't settle.
Tonight I was very tired, so after a nice relaxing bath I tried for an early night, but even with a podcast playing to distract me I couldn't fall asleep. The humidity seems to be high so I feel a bit damp - and not in a good way! I'm not a fan of aircon usually, would much rather sleep with just a sheet over me but tonight that doesn't work either, so I've got the duvet back out from the cupboard and thrown in on the bed so that I can put the aircon on. I've got a slight headache and am feeling a little thirsty. Oh I'm just full of grumbles tonight. So the plan is to get up for an hour or so, potter around and read a book, write this ridiculously dull post, wait for my room to be really cold and try again! Bleh! And its only Monday.

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A long and restless night

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Even though the night before I'd had little sleep, last night was probably my worst ever night for sleeping. I went to bed after a nice warm bath at about 11:00pm but then I saw the hours tick over, 1:00am, 2:00am and right up till 4:20am - then I must have finally slept - I must have done because I jumped awake at 6:05am and laid there waiting for the alarm to ring.
I suspect that I will not be at my most productive today.

Under the influence

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I've had a couple of sessions of hypnotherapy a few times in the past and I've also recently been listening to a motivational hypnosis CD late at night. I've been told in the past that I'm a good subject for hypnosis, which sort of makes sense when I accept how much I'm influenced by others moods on a day to day basis.


Although this CD doesn't aim to help me sleep I'm finding it very useful as it allows to me to 'switch off' from all the worries and concerns that seem to swirl around my mind in the darkness. As I lay there counting back from 300 (as per instructions) I can literally feel the pull on my mind and eyes as I am being taken under the influence, its a sort of fluttering over my eyes, even though they are closed and I'm relaxed against my pillow I feel that I'm being taken deeper - deeper to what or what I am not so sure. I just know that on the nights that I fall asleep listening to this CD I sleep well, don't have scary dreams and wake refreshed in the morning. And the furthest I can remember counting down to from 300 is 235 so by that reasoning I'm probably getting an extra hour of sleep a night which is great in itself!

I'd help if I could only find you

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I had the strangest of dreams last night.

There was someone calling me, someone who needed my help.
I can't remember who it was but it must have been someone important, because when I woke at 3.45am I was on my knees on the floor looking under the bed - I'd moved away the bottle of water and stack of book that were in my way and I was trying to help - really I was.

Rain

Waking to the sound of rain, it drums against a nearby metal roof.
I curl up under my duvet, wrapping my arms around the warm pillow.

Its perfect weather to stay in bed.


The day is cold outside, I find warmth on skin.